lossandsadness

Loss and the need for understanding.

I’ve been quiet. My Uncle and Godfather passed away on Monday. He has always been such a light in my life.  Ever since I can remember he used to tell me that I was going to be a star. I’d be famous and he would be my manager. It used to give me such a giggle. He never once wavered in his support and encouragement of my endeavors. When someone passes you, it leaves this hole in you.  I found this quote that seemed to sum up exactly how I felt about losing him:

“I think the hardest part of losing someone, isn’t having to say goodbye, but rather learning to live without them. Always trying to fill the void, the emptiness that’s left inside your heart when they go.” ~sd

I struggled this week. I felt almost like a zombie mom on autopilot. Between bouts of tears and quiet moments reminiscing I muddled through my days. I know that my Uncle wouldn’t want me to be step away from art and all the things that make me happy, because at this point- Netflix, pirates booty and root beer seem to be filling my days, he would want me to find my inner sunshine, my smile and never give up.  So today I grabbed my journal, picked up my charcoal and poured my feelings into the page.

I’ve found that I truly enjoy using charcoal over a clear gessoed page. Normally the gritty texture of the Liquitex clear gesso makes my skin crawl, but there was just something about the scratchy sound as the charcoal grazed across the page and the feel of that grit under my fingers as I smudged my lines that seemed to entrance and calm me.

I added soft pastels for a hint color in her face and then got crazy with the powdered charcoal, spraying acetone to give that bubbled effect.

I know that my Uncle is up in Heaven and is now MY star watching over me. The ache of loss runs so deep, and I know that with time it will ease, but does it ever truly go away?

The outpouring of love from you all over on Instagram has filled my heart with so much love. I am truly blessed and thankful to have you all in my life! Sending lots of love and cyber hugs out to you all today.

Mad Loves and God Bless!

XOX-

Erin

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‘Directions’

Hello My Artsy Friends!

Well, this week’s #inspiby got finished up a tad late. Much to my dismay, Hurricane Harvey showed his face in my neck of the woods. While we were very lucky and only ended up with lots of rain and some wind, rain, for some reason, always flares up my allergies badly. So I spent the entire weekend with a sinus migraine, barely functioning. (Which for a mother, is never a good state to be in!) Continue reading “‘Directions’”

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“Own Your Story”

Hello My Artsy Friends!

Can you believe this is week 12?! I’m just giddy with excitement! When I first chose this week’s featured layout (see the post about that HERE), I was under the assumption that it wouldn’t take too terribly long and it would have a gorgeous color payoff.  Well, I was right on both accounts! Continue reading ““Own Your Story””

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‘Garden of Love’

I was excited to get going on this week’s #inspiby prompt. I have had this gorgeous stamp from Carabell Studios that Birgit Koopsen designed for a while now and dreamed up this plan of how I was going to deconstruct it for a layout. Continue reading “‘Garden of Love’”

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Art Marks Week in Review

I did it! I’ve accomplished the first week of the Art Marks 30 Day Summer Challenge hosted by Rae Missigman. (Check out my blog post here for more details.) As promised, here are pictures from my first week! Continue reading “Art Marks Week in Review”