Loss and the need for understanding.

I’ve been quiet. My Uncle and Godfather passed away on Monday. He has always been such a light in my life.  Ever since I can remember he used to tell me that I was going to be a star. I’d be famous and he would be my manager. It used to give me such a giggle. He never once wavered in his support and encouragement of my endeavors. When someone passes you, it leaves this hole in you.  I found this quote that seemed to sum up exactly how I felt about losing him:

“I think the hardest part of losing someone, isn’t having to say goodbye, but rather learning to live without them. Always trying to fill the void, the emptiness that’s left inside your heart when they go.” ~sd

I struggled this week. I felt almost like a zombie mom on autopilot. Between bouts of tears and quiet moments reminiscing I muddled through my days. I know that my Uncle wouldn’t want me to be step away from art and all the things that make me happy, because at this point- Netflix, pirates booty and root beer seem to be filling my days, he would want me to find my inner sunshine, my smile and never give up.  So today I grabbed my journal, picked up my charcoal and poured my feelings into the page.

I’ve found that I truly enjoy using charcoal over a clear gessoed page. Normally the gritty texture of the Liquitex clear gesso makes my skin crawl, but there was just something about the scratchy sound as the charcoal grazed across the page and the feel of that grit under my fingers as I smudged my lines that seemed to entrance and calm me.

I added soft pastels for a hint color in her face and then got crazy with the powdered charcoal, spraying acetone to give that bubbled effect.

I know that my Uncle is up in Heaven and is now MY star watching over me. The ache of loss runs so deep, and I know that with time it will ease, but does it ever truly go away?

The outpouring of love from you all over on Instagram has filled my heart with so much love. I am truly blessed and thankful to have you all in my life! Sending lots of love and cyber hugs out to you all today.

Mad Loves and God Bless!




PB&Journaled Series

You guys! So while this post is well overdue, (because the PB&Journaled series has been up and running for a couple weeks now) I wanted to share this neat project with you here on the blog!

So, If you haven’t seen the paper bag journal tutorial yet, check out the video below:


Easy peasy right? Can I share a secret with you? I created this journal as a way to play on pages that didn’t stress me out. Sometimes when I work in a store bought journal, I panic. What if I ruin the page?  This journal cost me money, what If I make ugly art? Cue the panic. Laugh, you can totally laugh because I am sitting laughing at myself. It’s silly, but hey I am who I am! *Wink

So, I made the journal. I thought people might check out the video and be like, “oh, that’s nice.” and move on, but what happened next blew my mind! The PBJournal blew up! People started creating amazing journals and tagging me on Instagram! I was so excited! I shared all the journal tags on my instagram stories, which as you know only last 24 hours so I created a story highlight on my profile called PBJ Inspiration. You can head on over there and see all the journals people have created or search the #pbjournaled tag. Find the inspiration you need to get yourself into your art space and creating!

The PB&Journaled series runs every Tuesday over on YouTube so be sure to check it out! And if you create a journal- make sure you tag me so I can share your creation with everyone!

Thank you again for all your love and journal creations! Truly blown away by you all!

Mad loves and happy creating!



Creative Flow #5

Hey hey hello!

Man, January is just flying by! For our second Creative Flow Episode this month, I had fun creating with my mini me! (Well ok, she didn’t help me create it but she sure had fun helping me with the voice over!) As you know, or maybe you are new to the Flow, Tiffany and I both created a ‘flowish’  journal stuffed full of goodies and mailed them to each other. Every 1st and 3rd Thursday of the month we upload a video showcasing what we have created using 3 items from the flow we were sent.

Check out my process video below to see what 3 things I chose this week:

If you haven’t already, Be sure to head on over to Tiffany’s Channel and watch her video to see what 3 things she chose to use in her flow!

Here’s what I used to create this page:

Journal from Charlotte over at:

3 items from Tiffany’s Flow

Daler Rowney Simply Acrylic Matte Medium
Art Glitter Glue
Daniel Smith Acrylic Gesso- Iridescent Gold
Sookwang Double Sided Tape
3M Foam Tape

Ink Pads:
Close To My Heart- Brown Bag
Tim Holtz Distress Ink-Mowed Lawn

Darice- Embossing Essentials- Scroll Frame

Hampton Art Cling Stamps-Grateful
Echo Park- Once Upon A Time Script

Pastels from the Stencil Collection- Gray & Black

Stabilo Woody’s- Brown and Black

Lindys Stamp Gang Ink Spray-Maidenhair Fern Green

Gold Gel Pen
Marvy Le Pen- Black

Gold Leaf sheet

I hope you enjoyed my creation this week and were able to get into the creative flow yourself!
XO- Erin



Crazy Pages!

Hey All!

Well, I’ve embarked on yet another adventure! This one is a crazy one, no really, it IS! It’s the Crazy Pages Collaboration.

Check out my video below and then be sure to check all the rest of the artist’s links below!

“International Art Journal Pages Trade “Crazy Pages”

Twelve pages, Two amazing teams. Each page made with a different shape, design and techniques, painted with incredible backgrounds, are being shipped to different states and countries around the world! ?? ? ? ? ?
Once completed, each artist of the two teams will take their 12 pages, which were painted by 12 different people, and then will film or take pictures of them binding the pages into a unique, fun, and amazing Art Journal of Crazy Pages!!
Please be sure to check out my fellow YouTube Artists who are participating in this trade with me. Some will have pictures up on their Instagram Accounts and some will have a video up on YouTube detailing the whole journey. ?⭐️ “Crazy Pages” was created by and organized by Ayala Art / I Love 2 Paint.


Mona L https://www.youtube.com/user/monchri08

Ayala Art https://www.youtube.com/user/AyalaArt

Bea Grob https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCe7QGFU5YICjkDfn3jpkctg

Britta Toftebjerg https://www.youtube.com/mindartdk

Kristin Van Valkenburgh https://www.youtube.com/user/TwinkleArtist

Shae Zambali www.youtube.com/shae206

Courtney Hancock Wade https://www.youtube.com/user/Anonym…

Erin Serviss DeCoste https://m.youtube.com/channel/UCDVNmRKap2rbQ3t3Bv84J8g

Gabriele Gamatz https://www.youtube.com/user/gamatz2708

Cindy Porter https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCU6shFsb0tBbIi9bvQCfYCg

Cecilia J. Forteza https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Fifds8dvm_c&t=1560s

Kreatives Leben https://youtu.be/pagGMErRNEw

Linda A Israel https://youtu.be/RlWxk719dO0

ART BY ESTER A https://youtube.com/c/ArtByEsterA

Instagram and FB:
Tiffany Pacileo https://www.instagram.com/Tiffany18…
Kimberly Howard https://www.instagram.com/Kreations…
Gabriele Gamatz https://Instagram.com/gamatz
Britta Toftebjerg https://www.instagram.com/mindart.dk/

These beautiful gals didn’t have links but also participated:
Beth Gold, Joy Redington, Kristy Tyra, Kat Austin,

Here is what I used to create my pages:
Canvas Paper
Liquitex Gesso
Tim Holtz Alcohol Inks: Mermaid, Pool, Stream, Eggplant, Sailboat Blue
Distress Ink: Chipped Sapphire, Seedless Preserves
Hand carved stamps
Dyusions Ink Sprays: Fresh Lime, Bubblegum Pink
Archival Ink: Plum, Cornflower Blue
Finnabair Art Extravagance Graphite Texture Paste
Art Alchemy Metallique Paints: Fresh Orange, Crocus Fields
Joggles- 10-33791
The Crafters Workshop: TCW-261, TCW-492, TCW-493

How fun will this be! Once I get all 11 pages in my hot little hands I’ll film another video of me figuring out how I am going to bind all the crazy pages into one awesome journal! (If you’ve been following me for a while, you know how that will go down haha!) So stay tuned!

Happy Creating!



Inspired By Week 27 Prompt

Happy Monday Y’all! The holidays are official kicked into high gear! I don’t know about you but its a stress mess time of year, but taking those couple minutes to force myself into the studio to create helps alleviate some of that feeling. I wanted to finish of the Inspiby year with some holiday prompts, so for our second holiday prompt I am bringing back an artist that we have previously featured. Say Hi again to Nika Rouss! It’s hard not to want to choose her every week as her art journal pages are all so inspiring! Continue reading “Inspired By Week 27 Prompt”